BlueSuburbia takes you to a spot that’s full of a lonely form of menace – an oppressive concern that crushes you because it tells you that nobody will come prevent.
CONTENT WARNING: Self hatred. However possibly I’m studying this improper?
It felt just like the eyes had been throughout me as I walked via this place. They peered from all corners. They peeked from the earth below my ft. One thing was all the time staring irrespective of the place I walked. In a spot so loaded with an amazing sense of imminent destruction – a world that will continually collapse and reshape, full of uncertainty – they might simply watch me. Gawk away as I attempted to seek out someplace protected, however couldn’t. Not one among them appeared enthusiastic about serving to me, although. They might simply stare as I ran, in search of a way out of right here. It was like I used to be some type of leisure to them. That they simply wished to see me undergo.
This sense made the remainder of the sport’s scary ambiance minimize all of the deeper. I attempted to flee from a spider that known as for me to return nearer, however the roads all appeared to guide again to it. I discover myself in infinite halls full of photographs of self-loathing, and an interior thought course of that wishes me to hate myself. It guarantees some form of freedom in accepting that I deserve this hatred. That it ought to be my mantle or legacy, and that accepting it and being consumed by it’s the proper solution to work via it. Preventing it feels exhausting, All roads lead again to the spider, like I stated a second in the past. So why stroll? The place do I anticipate to go?
I really feel like I’ve to strive. I really feel like I must proceed this stroll to know, even because it breaks my coronary heart and calls for to interrupt my soul together with it. BlueSuburbia is a crushing imaginative and prescient of despair, the bottomless worth you pay for being harm and daring to discuss it, your agonies being changed into ‘content material’, and extra. Saying I need to spend extra time right here could be unfaithful. I’m afraid of this place. It hurts to face right here and pay attention. However I really feel that I’ve to see this via.
And there’s a spiteful hope by the tip of the demo that I’m greedy onto. A hope that I need to roar so loud it shakes the Earth.
I’ve to see it via.
BlueSuburbia is at the moment in growth, however within the meantime, you may seize a demo from itch.io.
